pandemo (pandemo) wrote,

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Just a Horse

Do you remember, fayzee, my KCMO friend MH from Seven Castles Arabians? Her last horse, Buzz, her driving horse, just had to be put down. I think he's in his 30's so that's no surprise, but, yeah, it's about the tears... So I stole a bit from your email -- I hope you don't mind...

This came to me today, and somehow struck a chord in my heart. It was just yesterday, I was unloading branches and looking at the hills behind Jake and Wanda's house, and thinking how I missed Dakota and wishing for one more ride, and I choked back a tear, because I did not want to miss what I can no longer have, then this came, just as a picture of Joc's beautiful face disappeared from the computer, and I miss "just a horse". Thank you, L, for sharing; I am sharing my tears with all of you today.

The Wave

Goodbye, Dear Friend.

Just a Horse!

From time to time, people tell me, "lighten up, it's just a horse," or,"that's a lot of money for just a horse". They don't understand the distance traveled, the time spent, or the costs involved for "just a horse." Some of my proudest moments have come about with "just a horse." Many hours have passed and my only company was "just a horse," but I did not once feel slighted. Some of my saddest moments have been brought about by "just a horse," and in those days of darkness, the gentle touch of "just a horse" gave me comfort and reason to overcome the day.

If you, too, think it's "just a horse," then you will probably understand phrases like "just a friend," "just a sunrise," or "just a promise." "Just a horse" brings into my life the very essence of friendship, trust, and pure unbridled joy. "Just a horse" brings out the compassion and patience that make me a better person. Because of "just a horse" I will rise early, take long walks and look longingly to the future.

So for me and folks like me, it's not "just a horse" but an embodiment of all the hopes and dreams of the future, the fond memories of the past, and the pure joy of the moment. "Just a horse" brings out what's good in me and diverts my thoughts away from myself and the worries of the day. I hope that someday they can understand that it's not "just a horse" but the thing that gives me humanity and keeps me from being "just a woman/man."

So the next time you hear the phrase "just a horse", just smile, because they "just" don't understand.

Live Simply.
Love Generously.
Care Deeply.
Speak Kindly...
and Leave the Rest to God.

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