|Wednesday, September 12th, 2001|
5:17a - What I want to see in my coverage of 911
The librarian came in to inquire if I had heard the news shortly after the first class of the day had begun.
I tried to conduct business as usual, but before the end of that hour, it proved to be impossible.
Someone tuned in live coverage via the Fox network. Since I do not have commercial tv at home, I do not even know what the different channels offer.
I want to see a shot of the sky line WITH the trade centers alive and well. I have never seen one. I have what it looks like falling, what it looks like with a jet swooping in to line itself up squarely with it, then collapsing in upon itself indelibly stamped on my mind.
Interviews with a yellow hard-hatted construcion worker driving a van full of others who had been on a nearby rooftop and saw it all. He was a hard-boiled looking character, had he been cast in a movie, but, in real life, stereotypes don't work. He was powerful as he said, "Me and the super"... and went on to describe bodies falling out of the air. When asked about his feelings, he ended up up with a heartfelt, "What would you feel/think?"
Coming home after dark, I heard an interview with someone with a structural engineer from a university in CA. His name sounded Arabic, and his accent was foreign, but his command of English was perfect. He had a gift for making the complex simple and easy to understand. He called the video of the collapse a classic example of... He explained about the strength of the steel under conditions of 1000 degree temperatures. One interesting comment he made what that the buildings did NOT collapse because of the impact. They were structurally sound and strong. He named the type of construction they were, talked about the qualities of that type of construction, and then pinpointed the changes that led the towers to fall into itself. He explained the weight that the upper floors would have as their weakened steel became brittle and gave hit the unweakened steel below.
This type of vivid, yet comprehensible, explanation creates a feeling of security in my mind, as after the earth quake damage in Turkey, a lot of the blame went to faulty construction, and the use of faulty materials. So, I was relieved that this was not the case.
The interview with the pilot who was talking about what the flight crews had to go through -- even with a gun to their heads, I can't think they would be made to fly into the side of a building. The way his voice caught, the way he came back strong. That one goes in.
The interview with the sister of "Mark" who talked on a telephone on a plane that had been hijacked...
The reporter who was talking to the people on the street as they ran from the area.
current mood: horrified
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5:17a - More 911
NPR's Alex Chadwick's tribute to America and Americans. We are all woke up in a new country this morning.
current mood: Touched
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5:17a - Aunt Audrey's Inspirational email
Date: Tue, 11 Sep 2001 21:01:56 -0500
This is a commencement speech made by Anna Quindlen at Villanova:
It's a great honor for me to be the third member of my family to receive an honorary doctorate from this great university. It's an honor to follow my great Uncle Jim, who was a gifted physician, and my Uncle Jack, who is a remarkable businessman. Both of them could have told you something important about their professions, about medicine or commerce. I have no specialized field of interest or expertise, which puts me at disadvantage talking to you today. I'm a novelist. My work is human nature.
Real life is all I know. Don't ever confuse the two, your life and your work. The second is only part of the first.
Don't ever forget what a friend once wrote Senator Paul Tsongas when the senator decided not to run for reelection because he had been diagnosed with cancer: "No man ever said on his deathbed I wish I had spent more time at the office."
Don't ever forget the words my father sent me on a postcard last year: "If you win the rat race, you're still a rat."
Or what John Lennon wrote before he was gunned down in the driveway of the Dakota: "Life is what happens while you are busy making other plans."
You will walk out of here this afternoon with only one thing that no one else has. There will be hundreds of people out there with your same degree; there will be thousands of people doing what you want to do for a living. But you will be the only person alive who has sole custody of your life. Your particular life. Your entire life. Not just your life at a desk, or your life on a bus, or in a car, or at the computer. Not just the life of your mind, but the life of your heart. Not just your bank account but your soul.
People don't talk about the soul very much anymore. It's so much easier to write a resume than to craft a spirit. But a resume is a cold comfort on a winter night, or when you're sad, or broke, or lonely, or when you've gotten back the test results and they're not so good.
Here is my resume:
I am a good mother to three children. I have tried never to let my profession stand in the way of being a good parent. I no longer consider myself the center of the universe. I show up. I listen. I try to laugh.
I am a good friend to my husband. I have tried to make marriage vows mean what they say.
I am a good friend to my friends, and they to me. Without them, there would be nothing to say to you today, because I would be a cardboard cutout. But I call them on the phone, and I meet them for lunch.
I would be rotten, or at best mediocre at my job, if those other things were not true. You cannot be really first rate at your work if your work is all you are.
So here's what I wanted to tell you today:
Get a life. A real life, not a manic pursuit of the next promotion, the bigger paycheck, the larger house. Do you think you'd care so very much about those things if you blew an aneurysm one afternoon, or found a lump in your breast?
Get a life in which you notice the smell of salt water pushing itself on a breeze over Seaside Heights, a life in which you stop and watch how a red tailed hawk circles over the water or the way a baby scowls with concentration when she tries to pick up a Cheerio with her thumb and first finger.
Get a life in which you are not alone. Find people you love, and who love you. And remember that love is not leisure, it is work. Pick up the phone. Send an e-mail. Write a letter.
Get a life in which you are generous. And realize that life is the best thing ever, and that you have no business taking it for granted. Care so deeply about its goodness that you want to spread it around. Take money you would have spent on beers and give it to charity. Work in a soup kitchen. Be a big brother or sister.
All of you want to do well. But if you do not do good too, then doing well will never be enough. It is so easy to waste our lives, our days, our hours, our minutes. It is so easy to take for granted the color of our kids' eyes, the way the melody in a symphony rises and falls and disappears and rises again. It is so easy to exist instead of to live.
I learned to live many years ago. Something really, really bad happened to me, something that changed my life in ways that, if I had my druthers, it would never have been changed at all.
And what I learned from it is what, today, seems to be the hardest lesson of all. I learned to love the journey, not the destination. I learned to look at all the good in the world and try to give some of it back because I believed in it, completely and utterly.
And I tried to do that, in part, by telling others what I had learned. By telling them this: Consider the lilies of the field. Look at the fuzz on a baby's ear. Read in the backyard with the sun on your face. Learn to be happy. And think of life as a terminal illness, because if you do, you will live it with joy and passion as it ought to be lived.
David B. Roggenkamp
Lincoln Mercury PD Operations, Operations Planning
current mood: Calmer
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5:17a - More 911
Colin Powell: The American people have a good understanding that this is war, and it may be a long term conflict.
Spoken like a true general...
current mood: Disgusted
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