pandemo (pandemo) wrote,
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How Violent Are YOU?

When I first started teaching, I got in the middle of two fights.  Two men teaching with me (team teaching history/English) to a class of twenty kids (at the Iowa State Juvenile Home, where I taught for my first nine years), and who steps between the fighters?  The closest?  The coach?  Nope.  Me.  Twice with the same kid, who hit me both times.

The second time, I got mad and shook my fist in his face and told him if he ever did it again, I'd flatten him.  He was a skinny young Black kid from East Waterloo, and his momma must have said something similar to him, as he backed off and didn't repeat.

What I don't get is the men standing back, letting me handle it.  Expecting me to, long before I'd ever shown any "colors".

I've always considered myself "nonviolent", but there I was, shaking.  From the outside, it probably looked like a fear reaction.  But on the inside?  On the inside, I was angry.  I was furious.  I was close to a berserker rage.  Who knew?  Certainly not me, prior to that second incident.
Tags: reminiscence, sjh, violence
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